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Name: andrea
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Chicago
Birthday: 1/19/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: talking with people that i love, reading, jounaling, starbucks!! peoples facination with mario tricoci, dancing around my room, movies, laughing,the awesome world of art, the impressionable minds of kids, learning more about about the God that i love, giving sylar peanut butter and watching him try and lick it off (i know, i'm cruel)
Expertise: making people laugh through my embarassing moments, overanalyzing everything in my life, pretending that i know what i'm doing, talking in lisp's
Message: message me
AIM:  draino24
Member Since:
3/8/2005
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| Many things in my head, not enough words to express them properly so I rely on others to make it pretty
from the journal of brennan manning
"to fell safe is to stop living in my head and sink down into my heart and feel liked and accepted...not having to hide anymore and distract myself with books, television, movies, ice cream, shallow conversation...staying in the present moment and not escaping into the past or projecting into the future, alert and attentive to the now...feeling relaxed and not nervous or jittery...no need to impress or dazzle others or draw attention to myself...unself-conscious, a new way of being with myself, a new way of being in the world...calm, unafraid, no anxiety about what's going to happen next...loved and valued...just being together as an end in itself"
living too much the other way lately
"To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch...to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This Is To Have Succeeded!- Emerson
The face of freedom can show up small
A tiny crack in the prison wall
A song that rises up from freedom
A voice that wants to say
No more chains
-Nichole Nordeman
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| Peace.
it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart.
this sounds like a great start for the first post of the year.
So I love that my friends are in love and enjoying their lives as couples, but for goodness sake...just because eharmony hasn't changed my life yet doesn't mean that it's not interesting. Here's to living my life, and not anyone else's! Just feeling a little overwhelmed by love right now!
I like this song right now:
My married friends keep asking
When I'll settle down,
they tell me time is passing and there's not too many good ones still around
I tell them "I am not afraid to be alone"
and there's no need to rush into something wrong
So I'm not gonna worry
no I'm in no hurry
it's in the hands of faith
there's nothin' it can do
and it might be tomorrow
or the one that follows
got the rest of my life to look forward to
cause everyday is
one day closer to you
one day closer
carolyn dawn johnson
PLEASE PRAY!
My friend Michelle's boyfriend was killed on Wed. the 4th in a terrible drunk driving accident. Michelle and I work together, she's such a great girl, kind of quiet and soft spoken. John's best friend was driving and hit another SUV head on and also killed a woman that was 9 months pregnant, I can't even believe it right now, there are so many shity details that will just get worse as more is learned so any prayers would be greatly appreciated!
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| Several years ago my mom decided that instead of trying to buy my sister and I Christmas presents, that we would simply make a list of things we wanted. This has proved to be successful method, because it eliminates hurt feelings, and frustration of having to return half the things you receive. On the downside however, it does take away the element of surprise, especially as I've gotten older and the lists are not as long...it's now more of a process of elimination. Until this year...A week before Christmas, my sister told my she put an ipod nano on her list, I laughed at her and said good luck with that, it was something we both really wanted, but being older and more in touch with the reality of life (translates into believing less in the impossible)I knew it was a slim to none chance. Well turns out...I was wrong. When she opened her ipod, my dad said that my face became viably angry, I didn't say anything about it, but you could tell. In that moment I felt completely frustrated with myself for not asking, towards my sister for getting one, and at my parents for the surprise, amazing the emotions we can go through in a moment. Then I was handed the my next present...an ipod. I couldn't believe it, talk about the makings of a lesson.
In that moment I realized how my ideas of reality taint the miracles that God has in store for me. It made me sad to realize that one of the primary reasons I don't ask for things is that I can find too many logical reasons for why it wouldn't happen, and therefore there's really no use asking. With the case of the ipod, it was that my dad hadn't had a job for a year and a half and even though things were getting progressively better, they're expensive. In other areas the excuses are more advanced, but it all boils down to the same thing. On the other hand, the experience of hope is more interesting, because the reality is that whether I speak them or not, God is very much in tune with the desires of my heart, He's interested in my best life, and sometimes is the God of miracles.
Completely Different Thoughts!
I love that the people that I care the most about all come back for Christmas! I'm so excited about New Years, and I love The Annual Girls Get Together!
It feels kind of like there's all these strings attached to your heart, that feel far away, but when Christmas comes they all pull together and my heart bursts!
This Xanga is dedicated to Abby Jansen, my number 1 blog stalker | | |
| Right now I hate living in the moment! I really hate feeling trapped by my circumstances, and i truly hate that the things are closest to my heart feel so far away, like California sunshine! Oh how i sincerely miss it, on the superficial, Chicago is so f'ing cold, level to the deeper stuff about moving on. The theme i just can't escape is that life is hard...worth it, but really hard.
So if i could sit and talk with anyone in the starbucks of heaven, it would be Abraham. He is my Old Testement soul mate. I need him to help me understand so many things about God, his timing, and his reasons. I don't want the answers, I just want him to give me encouragement as I'm learning how to believe in the promises!
So there he stood upon that hill
Abraham with knife in hand, was poised to kill
But God in all His sovereignty had bigger plans
And just in time, you brought a lamb
Cause you were there
You were there
In the midst of the unclear
You were there, You were always there
You were there, when obedience
Seemed to not make sense
You were there, you were always there
You were always there
You were there, You were there
During history's darkest hour
You were there, You were there
You were the victor and the king
You were the power in Davids swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strenght when we have none
You are the living, Holy One
You were, You are, and You will always be
The risen lamb of God
verses from "You Were There"
by Avalon
I'm starting my New Years Resolution early! No matter the circumstance i find myself in, my emotions and feeling will not dictate my reactions, but i will savor the truth i know and move from there.
Goodness that's a lot
On a completely different note:
I've been thinking about your question, Brian and here's what i got:
The thing about Mr. Darcy is that He was honest without needing to prove anything, he continued to love Elizabeth even though she rejected his proposal, and lived out of that love, plus there's nothing better than a seemingly arrogant person pouring their heart out to you.
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| So I'm sitting at the end of my wonderful three day weekend and realizing that i didn't really accomplish anything that I should have done, while i had the time to do it...well, at least any of the responsible things! i am proud to say though that i did something this weekend that i've never done, i went movie hoping. my friend and i saw pride and prejudice and walk the line! they were excellent by the way! plus they got me pumped for all the christmas movies coming out! let me say that movie hoping is stressful, we were at the streets of woodfield theater and they have a cop standing next to the ticket taker, so it was somewhat scary, but it worked, so what can i say! I realize that this was fully wrong, but i wanted to try it at least once. another thing about movie hoping is that it takes up a lot of your time, we got there at 4:15 and didn't leave untill 9:50... good grief that is a lot of time to waste!
I sincerely hope that these next two days at work go by quickly because i can hardly wait for San Diego! I was looking at pictures from last year, remembering what a time it was and almost fell over with anticipation!
Colleen: thanks for the poem, it was so great! maybe i should encourage more people to use me as the subject of their xanga logs!
Favorite Upcoming Movies:
1) Narnia
2) The Ice Harvest
3) Casanova
4) Tristan and Islode
5) The Family Stone
6) Rent
7) Just Friends
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